Bad mannerism

The typical Singaporean "Auntie" attitude of forgetting etiquette when wanting to benefit oneself. Rushing to get free or discounted items, rushing to be the first in the queue, rushing to the free seat in the MRT,bus or hawker centre. Making "full use" of what they paid for ( i paid 20cents to enter the toilet, take more toilet paper, flush more often).
All these acts DISGUST me to the utmost maximum, they show how low one would stoop just for these small gains.

Sustained Injuries; However, A Great Sense Of Achievement

Perspiration trickles down our faces as we anticipate the oncoming ball, we're all panting and tired after doing the first 80 reps. Here goes another 80 cos we didn't do it properly. The training is tiring, but it's just at the lowest level. Our(or at least my) fitness level isn't there yet.
We finally finished what seemed like a thousand reps and immediately, it's tug jumps and V-Mans.

My knee cap feels weird and a little pain at the top, think it's my old injury acting up, i'm worried, but i dare not stop training for fear of being looked down upon. Finally, i get to play. I score just one ball, but i'm contented.

Tried jumping after everything ended and FINALLY, the elusive back board is finally mine to touch. The feeling of elation fills me as i go for a second jump. Only after 2 little trainings, my vertical has increased, i'm happy about it. I'm gonna train harder.

You can't please everyone, don't even try ; Adapt

Well, i guess i'm sort of assimilating into poly life. The headaches are still there, but i'm sort of getting used to them. The lecture speeds are forever fast paced and i guess i can't slow the whole class down due to my low level of intellect. Nevertheless i'm trying my best to absorb everything the lects are saying and trying to process every single thing in my little tiny brain.

It's like studying for my O levels everyday (if i hadn't mentioned it before) and i guess it's somehow taking a toll on my mental health.
There're so many personalities that i've to handle appropriatly and also holding back myself, this really does develop my self-control.

I realised that the world isn't what it seems from my Secondary-School-perspective and that there're so many things out there in the world you've got to face and overcome yourself, i somehow lost my sense of security as compared to being in my comfort zone during my Secondary School days. There're so many things out there waiting for just the right moment to grab you and bring you into the abbyss of no return. Just one moment of folly and you're done for, you'll have ruined your whole life.

Seriously, can i just take a break from this tiring life and revert back to my own little space where everything is warm and cosy, without the monsters hiding around??